Deathly Ill

Okay, not really. I don't even know what's wrong with me, but I have a fever of 103, and a nasty cough. I told my dog today that I'll leave him everything if I die. Being melodramatic is fun. In all honesty though, I'm miserable, so I got on here to gripe about it. School today was awful, I was freezing all day due to the fever, and now my shoulders and neck are sore from shivering and hunching in attempts to get warm. So now I'm watching Dancing with the Stars, and all I have to say is that the girl from 90210 is really awful, and that I don't blame Tony for freaking out and quitting because Kate Gosslin is a terror and no one should have to deal with that crap. I think my next post will be about friends and my life with and without them, but that may not be for a little while, because right now my head hurts too bad, and I'm going to South Carolina on SB on Friday, I'll be there a week, so when I get back from that, I'll post about friends and any adventures I have there. Also, I had lots of adventures this weekend, so I'll try and post about that tomorrow.

the road to becoming a lush

No, no, I don't mean the word old ladies use for a drunk. I mean Lush cosmetics...
I loveeee them, and I recommend them to anyone, because there is something for everyone.

List of products I own: Ocean Salt, Aquamarina, Snow Fairy body soap, Tea Tree Toner Tabs, a bunch of the Christmas limited edition bath bombs that I'm hoarding, Mask of Magnaminty, and Vanishing Cream Moisturizer.

I can tell you that I have yet to be dissapointed with any of it. Yes, some of the products are more expensive than what you would pay for a generic brand, but you're paying for the natural ingredients versus just slapping more chemicals on your face and body on top of what more of you are already injesting daily.
My next purchase will be Grease Lighting, which I'm told works beautifully - if you notice a pimple coming up, and put Grease Lightning on it twice a day for two days, I'e been told by several people that it was completely gone.

As an athlete, it's really nice to come home after a long game or practice and get clean and a little pampered with products I know are not only good for me and my skin, but also for the environment.
Being concious makes me happy :)





Kulia i ka nu'u : Strive for the Summit

I can feel it coming...

This is going to be an issue, I can tell already. This is becoming my go-to thing for whenever I'm bored on the computer. Even if I don't have anything to talk about. So this is going to end up with a billion pointless posts on here because I'm bored a lot.
I really want to go rock climbing. And I want to work on my art. But I'm lazy, and I don't know how much I can get done in an hour. Plus I don't know what to paint/draw/whatever. I think I'm going to try and work on this collage type thing... I don't know really what it's going to be yet. I always end up with these projects that I don't like at all but have some good elements that I usually cut out. So I'm thinking that I make this collage off the different parts that I do like.

It's really unfortunate that commercials aren't less anoying. I feel like if they were more bearable people would buy more of whatever shit they're selling.

I NEED MY TRUE BLOOD BACK
Seriously. I don't know WHY they're making me wait almost a whole year for this. Completely unfair. They get you hooked, and then take away the drug.
There are so many things I want to do with my life. I want to learn to fly a plane or helicopter, and pilot a yacht, and generally know how to take care of myself.

But here's the big question: Why does Cougar Town only get a half hour but Ugly Betty gets a whole hour? Because clearly Cougar Town is better.

Who hates disney sequels? I do! They always end up bad.

Sorry, that was just a bunch of crap that I kept on seeing on TV.

oh lordy. How did Detroit end up with such crazy polititions? Honestly. This is getting rediculous. Kwame Kilpatrick? Monica Conyers? Good God. I just heard her on tv... apparently in court she was yelling something about "Don't disrespect me! Don't do it baby!" Who says that in court? Anyway, she's most likely going to jail because I don't think her appeal will work. And Kwame keeps going into court, but I think he might eventually end up back in jail, too. Not that he deserves anything less. I do feel bad for him in a way. No one deserves to be married to Carlita. I don't know how he ever got up the nerve to cheat on her. I'd be terrified.



Anyway, I was wearing this really cute outfit the other day, and I took a picture, but I have to get on the other computer to upload it, so it probably won't be up here for a few days yet.
Stupid Oscars. I didn't get to see Gilles on Brothers and Sisters this week.
There is no amount of movie stars in gorgeous dresses that can make up for missing this:



Now I have to go find the song that was on at the end of Ugly Betty because I really liked it, and then go to bed because I have to take the ACT again in the morning. :(
Some stupid person went out on Lake St. Clair and fell through the ice. Who does that in 45 degree weather? Anyway fire fighters went and got who ever it was out. But then the fire fighters fell in as well. They all got out in the end.
What did I say? Kwame is back in court tomorrow trying to get the judge overseeing his case disqualified. And Monica is trying to fight reporters. OH SHE IS GOING TO JAIL. 37 months for extortion and accepting bribes.
crazycrazycrazy.
These are reasons why people need to be better educated. So these people don't get elected to public offices to begin with.

what?!
Okay, they have a St. Patrick's day parade every year in Detroit... the city isn't allowing people to throw beads or candy from floats. I swear things get more rediculous every year.

Belated Oscars Post

So I had this idea when the Oscars were on, and I don't know why I didn't just post it then, but here it is; In honor of the Oscars, I am making a post lising my top ten favorite movies.

10. My Neighbor Totoro (The Original): What can you say about this movie? It's the most amazing children's film I've ever seen.


9. The Departed: Mark Wahlberg, Matt Damon, Leonardo DiCaprio, Martin Sheen, AND the great Jack Nicholson? My favorite scene? The rat crawling across the banister at the end.


8. All About Eve/Now Voyager: A tie between two great Bette Davis films, I couldn't decide. All About Eve is a distinguished and entertaining film, I love George Sanders in this, what a great character actor! Now, Voyager is a fantastic story, and was the first Bette Davis film I ever saw.


7. To Have and Have Not: The first ever Humphrey Bogart and Lauren Bacall film. This is absolutley riveting and lovely.


6. Finding Nemo: I loveeeeeee this movie, how can you not? The graphics are beautiful, and the story is as well.


5. The Barbarian Invasions: A French Canadian indie film that's not about barbarians at all. Almost the entire film is in french, which I love, and I can't help but leave you with this quote:
Remy: We've been everything: separatists, supporters of independantists, sovereignists, sovereignity-associanists...
Pierre: At first, we were existentialists.
Dominique: We read Sartre and Camus.
Claude: Then Fanon, we became anti-colonialists.
Remy: We read Marcuse and became Marxists.
Pierre: Marxist-Leninists.
Alessandro: Trotskyists.
Diane: Maoists.
Remy: After Solzhenitsyn we changed, we became structuralists.
Pierre: Situationists.
Dominique: Feministis.
Claude: Deconstructionists.
Pierre: Is there an -ism we haven't worshipped?
Claude: Cretinism.


4. Where the Wild Things Are: So it doesn't follow the book, oh well. I love it for what it is, which is a beautiful story about understanding, learning, and growing up.

3. Garden State: Hooray for Zah Braff, Peter Sarsgaard, and Natalie Portman! They're all great in this. I love Sam, and Mark, and Large, and Kenny, and everyone! The characters are amazingly developed. I love the journey of getting to a better place mentally.

2. Wicker Park: I don't know what else to say about this movie other than it's beautiful. I love the story, I love Josh Hartnett(so hot!)and Diane Kruger. I love the twisty plot, and I love that he finds her in the end.


And here is some cheating from your faithful writer:
1.75. A Love Song for Bobby Long: Scarlet Johansson is amazing in this movie, as is John Travolta and the amazing Gabriel Macht. ( I remember when I was little I saw Grease and I had the biggest little-kid-crush on John Travolta, and then I got older and realized that he was old and not cute anymore and I was horrified. ) A story about finding family is always beautiful.


1.5. Blue Hawaii: I'm a sucker for an Elvis movie. I wish they were on TV more often, but then maybe I should just buy some? Anyway, it's great, you should watch it.


1.25. Fight Club: This had to be in here. I love me some Fight Club. Gotta have some Tyler Durden. "The first rule of Fight Club is you do not talk about Fight Club."


1. The Blues Brothers: All that needs to be said is
"It's 106 miles to Chicago, we have a full tank of gas, half a pack of cigarettes, it's dark, and we're wearing sunglasses."
"Hit it."



That's all folks!

foodlove

I've recently been making a concious effort to eat healthier food.
Today I ate a grapefruit for the first time in more than 10 years. ( The last time I didn't like it at all. ) Isn't it funny how the smallest things can catapault you in the right direction? I loved the grapefruit, and I'm committed to find other foods that are equally as delicious and equally as health concious.
I've been making a small effort to eat organically, but I feel that if I'm going to do it, I might as well really do it. I want to eat all organic.
I already shop mostly at a farmer's market nearby. I wish it was out of some big plan of action I had to support local farmers, and partly that does influence me; but it's honestly for purely selfish reasons - I just love it. I've been going to the little store for as long as I can remember. I have some great childhood memories there. The whole atmosphere is more pleasurable when compared to a chain grocery store like Kroger or Meijer. Actually, I love Meijer too, because I swear you can find everything there for really cheap, except for the produce which is not so cheap.
Trentwood( the farm market ) is a tiny store, but they manage to pack an extreme amount of goods in it. There's nothing you can't find in there, I swear.
How funny that a little thing like a grapefruit can inspire so many thoughts and convictions.
All of my recent food purchases have been from Trentwood, not only is the quality of the produce that much better, but it feels good knowing that I'm supporting local businesses rather than a huge chain.
I love food, and I love to love my food. If I can get better food that's better for me, that's better for the people around me, why wouldn't I?
I'm contemplating returning to Vegetarianism - the only meat I've been eating recently is fresh sliced turkey lunchmeat from the meat counter at trentwood... it makes me feel better that it hasn't been pre-packaged and loaded with more preservatives than nessesary. But I could really cut that out without it killing me. I like the idea of vegtarianism. But I don't think I could ever be a vegan, I like cheese and eggs too much. :)

Ouch

So here's the thing.
Cheap heels that you get from F21 and Charlotte Russe HURT.
After a half hour, they make your feet want to fall off in a pile.
But my wallet says that if you want to have lots of shoes, a price must be paid.
Damn Damn Damn.
Anywayyyyyyy I'm going to Dick Blick Art Supplies today for DUM DA DUM! Art supplies!
Which is always fun. But I think I'm going to stop by payless after, because I think the last new pair of shoes I got were my GORGEOUS MK's for homecomming (That I spent wayyyy to much money on. (&& I'll probably do the same thing for Prom.))

I NEED TO DO SOME SPRING SHOPPING WITH ALL OF THE MONEY THAT I DON'T HAVE.



And these are the numerous things I want ( that I can't have ) :


Michael Kors. I felt one of these in Lord and Taylor, they are SO soft. I want one so bad.

More Michael Kors. I'm really feelin' the wedges. The silver look a lot less bright in person, which I like better.



Can you tell I really like MK? But I like the big clunky watches a lot.


I LOVE THESE. Even more than the Michael Kors ones.

These are gorgeous.

I'm questioning these, but I think I like them.

I've been eyeing this baby since the day after Christmas. Maybe birthday?

DVF. Enough said.

I'm a bracelet freak. I'm fairly sure that I own more various peices of jewelry right now than I will own peices of clothing in my entire life.

D&G. I like this for unknown reasons. I have no idea what I would wear it with.

I like this one, or the DVF one for use with the Ralph Lauren dress that you will see shortly.

I have a thing for these mini-cowboy boots. I don't know if I'll actually buy any. I'm pretty sure they'll make my already short and slightly stumpy legs shorter and stumpier looking.

Love the conservative front, cut-out back.


I just now am gaining the confidence to rock the jumpsuit/jumper & I'm really excited about it.



Hooray vests!


I <3 ringsssssss! I already have a set of five that I wear every day without fail.


And here is the RL dress I was talking about with the belts. I would hem it a little and scrap the sash, & I think it would be gorgeous.



I absolutley love this. But it's like, over $3,000. And that's obviously not in the budget.


This beauty is from Alicia at Instant Vintage, and her online store,Talonalia.Unfortunatley, they're sold out. Bummer.

This is cute, but I don't know if I would actually wear it or if I would look at it while it sat in my closet.

I have been hunting for one of these tirelessly. I NEED a snake bracelet.


Oh, DVF, how I love thee.

Yes, it's long. Yes, I'm going to have to settle on almost all of it. I hope I find things that are similar enough to make me happy.
Like my mom always says "I married well, but you need to marry weller."

Yes, yes I do. I need to marry extremely well.
Or, you know, make A TON of my own money.
Or both. Both is good.


Update: The Hawk Talon is now availible! Estoy muy emocionada!

Drawing 101

So it wasn't as horrifically mortifying as I thought it might be, in all actuality, it was fairly comfortable. I felt cliche when I drew the model's feminine parts, but it wasn't bad at all. I think what made it comfortable was that she was so comfortable in her own skin. And, she was really good, because she didn't move a lot at all. I wish I could sit on an elevated surface stone still and not be worrying about how awful I must look from certain angles. And from what I hear, it's good money as well. She was getting paid $14 an hour. For sitting still. Naked. She was there for two hours, that's $28. In the summer I make $50 in 5 1/2 hours washing boats. I need an in in the art modeling industry.

Anyway, I learned that figure drawing is a pain in the ass a lovely art form.

Very complex, very flustering. Anyway, after my hour and fifteen minute drive there, the class was well worth it, because I need figure drawings in my portfolio. There's another class there next week, but it's going to be a BOY... O.O

We'll see.

I keep seeing these commercials for Forest Gump on TV. I thought there was just a whole Forest Gump marathon on a few weeks ago. How much Forest Gump can one person handle? Because you know that there's that one person out there that watches it every single time it's on.

Okay, but you know what I really hate? Bermuda shorts, which are not to be confused with culottes. I was just watching an allergy medication commercial where there was a mom and daughter golfing and both of them were wearing plaid Bermudas. U.G.L.Y. why? I feel like Bermuda's are right up there with Crocs in the category of items that should just never be worn. ( Actually, Crocs are alright if you're in a health profession where you'll be in a hospital daily and on your feet because they are damn comfortable. ) Other than that, though, never should they leave store shelves. They're out of control! Why does anyone need more than one variety of Croc boot? Or high heel? Why does anyone need a Croc boot, or high heel period? More than one type of leopard Croc is ridiculous as is the excessive amount of colors they now come in.


I say, put a world-wide ban on Crocs unless you are a licenced health care professional.

Another Day, Another Adventure

Tomorrow I have an art class, it's my first in a long time. I'm in painting in school right now, but tomorrow is a drawing class. I haven't drawn anything since last semester, so I don't know how good this is going to be. Also, it's my fist class with a model. A NUDE model. I know I should be more mature about it, but I don't know if it's going to be a man or a woman. Maybe gender shouldn't be such an issue, but I've never seen a naked man before, and the only naked woman I've seen other than myself is my mother. I'm going to have to try extremely hard to look at their body objectively rather than just sit and stare in wonderment that there is naked human being in front of me, just sitting there like it's no big deal. I hope that I can react to this situation gracefully and without the embarrassing smile I get when I'm put in awkward situations. I'll let you know how it goes, maybe I'll upload a photo or two of what I get done if it's any good.

P.S. I'm an only child, which results in my talking to myself quite a bit, which my mother tends to look at me like I'm crazy for. But right now SHE'S in the other room watching Patton (1970) talking to herself/the T.V. screen. I'm debating whether I should go say something. :)

Directive 001; By Order of the Great Leader or You Are Now the King, and You Will be a Truly Great King

So this is it, the first post in what I hope will be a fairly successful blogging endeavour. I won't lie, my life is not very interesting and I have never before been able to write in a journal continually but I'm going to give this a try, and we'll see how far I get. I feel like I need to get my thoughts out somewhere, because keeping them couped up in my head forever can't be healthy. I'm too outspoken (in my head) for communication to people I can see face to face, and I'm hoping that this blog will let me express my real opinions and thoughts without being afraid of what others will think. Isn't it nice how the internet gives you that sense of freedom from judgement?
Small town living definitely lives up to the reputation of cloistered, repressed kids all chomping at the bit to get out and start a life in the real world. Also, it probably doesn't help that I live on an island. Actually, it most likely just feeds the fire. Anyway, I'm excited to start this, and I generally hope that it ends up being something I love to do.

I want to be honest in my opinions, and feelings, and thoughts. I'd like to have the liberty to be honest in real life as well, but there are too many feeling to hurt, too many others that don't understand, too many people who don't know what they're talking about and tend to shoot their mouths off like they do. I want to be free of these things, so I'm going to be honest in my writing if nowhere else.

So, to start off with a question that some may be wondering, why call it Living Beneath Wax Paper?
It's because that's what I'm doing. I have so many thoughts and feelings and other internal ramblings that don't get shared with anyone because I'm afraid. I'm basically terrified of people and what they will think of me if I'm real with them. If I don't subscribe to their prototype of nice, non-confrontational, and uninformed.

I think this starts off things nicely, I hope to update here at least twice a week, but if I don't it can be blamed on my life being as boring as possible.